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my 21st birthday was saturday.

MARCH 6TH 2010

1. date - Fancy dress+Fancy Dinner+Fancy flowers+Black Rebel Motorcycle Club tickets+Premier of Alice in Wonderland=21 bday date perfection

2. Lunch date with Kelli @ Nina P's and vintage shopping!

3. lunch date with trevor at hibachi!!!

4. Rach,Tay,Me trip to texas for sxse on friday= MIDNIGHT bday SHOTS!

5. Rachael got me a Red dress for my bday and crown and wand AND threw me a surprise bday party with all of our friends and a bon fire and lights galore and party mixes and wine THEN casino!!!

6. taylor and i go to texas AGAIN for sxse DANCE DANCE DANCE good music good times

pictures soon hopefully.

best week ever.

thanks to EVERYONE!!!!

i'm not a lesbian (even though no one believes me)

I JUST LISTED EVERY BOY I HAVE HAD AN ACTUAL CRUSH/RELATIONSHIP WITH IN THE PAST 5 YEARS

LISTS ARE SO WONDERFUL

A GREAT SOURCE OF MEDITATION FOR ME

i could be a liar

ALTHOUGH I DO POST A LOT OF SEXUAL PHOTOS I'M NOT ALL THAT CONFIDENT

I REALLY HAVE A PROBLEM WITH MY THIGHS.TUMMY.BOOBS.ARMS

IT'S ODD HOW I FEEL IN MY SKIN

AND I GUESS THAT'S EVERYONE

OR MOST PEOPLE

I HAVE SAID ONCE BEFORE THAT I'M GOING TO WORK OUT AND THAT IM GOING TO START EATING MORE HEALTHY

BUT I MEAN IT THIS TIME

WATER AND GREENS FOR ME

AND I NEED TO START TAKING MY VITAMINS

ANYWAYS

YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER I WENT TO SCHOOL FOR GRAPHIC DESIGN

SO I KNOW HOW TO EDIT PHOTOGRAPHS PRETTY WELL

WHAT IF I WEREN'T EVEN SHOWING YOU MY REAL BODY

I MEAN I AM BUT WHAT IF I WERE FOOLING YOU

I WANT TO BE REAL 100% OF THE TIME

SO MY BODY BETTER BE READY FOR SOME ADJUSTMENTS

EXPRESSING MYSELF

21 birthday is SATURDAY.

& i have no plans...

no nothing.

butttt:

i want a toned body and pretty pretty vintage lingerie for my b-day nothing over the top.

just sheer/frills/lace/pastels/with all the fixxins.

everything girl.

dont forget that new toned body on my 5 foot 4 inch frame. so fragile and delicate.

Mmmmm

and yes i will post this damn picture as many times as i want, so shut up.

<3>

tape song

WANTS IN LIFE ARE FEW

THE THINGS THAT I WANT IN LIFE ARE FEW

THE THINGS THAT I WANT IN LIFE ARE FEW

DONT SHOW YOUR FACE

I HATE A MAN

IF YOU CAN EVEN CALL HIM A MAN

HIS WAYS ARE NOT HIS OWN

HE IS A COWARD

AN IMP

A LIAR

A TERRIBLE LITTLE PERSON

FULL OF DESTRUCTION AND DISASTER

HE HAS NO ONE TO LOVE

HE IS ALONE

HE IS A WICKED SOUL

HE IS NOTHING THAT I FAVOR

HE IS NOTHING TO ME

I HAVE FORGIVEN FOR THE LAST TIME

YOU CAN GO FAR FAR AWAY

YOU CAN GET BENEATH MY FOOT

I AM DONE WITH YOU

YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME YOU DESERVE NOTHING FROM ME

THESE WORDS ARE ALL THAT YOU HAVE OF ME

I HOPE YOU ENJOY WHAT YOU'VE BECOME

BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE SIR

SINCERELY,

YOUR ENEMY

YOU GOT IT I WANT IT

...

BUT NOT JUST FROM ANYONE

bridget and jane.

Daysha this reminded me of us.

bridget bardot & jane birkin <3

BR

February 15, 2010

LUNA

me, kelli, rach, billy, logan, ____,jud, joe, paul, corey

quotes from the whole night..

quite funny

to many drinks.

amazing food.

good times.

Then there was Baton Rouge last fri & sat

and this is how that went

Kelli, Rach, & Me.

(with everyone above included)

r a g e

Courtney:
he's literally the biggest asshole i've ever met in my life.
honestly i have never deleted someone out of my phone.. because thats stupid.. but i did it for with him
i couldnt take it.
i had to be active with my emotions and now i want to be active on his face/car/anything i can get my hands on
he's a fucking prick and he has a vagina- there's no way he can possess a dick..
unless it's tucked behind his nasty ass somewhere that i can
t
see.
E N D

Michael:
haha you are raging!!

.....

i cut my hair yesterday.

but im still a gypsy.

taylor briggs and i (birthday talk)

Comment from me to Taylor Briggs.

to all of you who know not much about me

I AM SINGLE

and this picture is 2 years old.

i posted it because i was going through my blonde hair days and i saw this

and had a flashback of when times were different.

i have my rights

and this is a decent snap shop that i had fun editing.

also- goodness i look like im going to suck his face in hah

blondie

i think im going blonde tomorrow...

a little lighter though.

ps: i miss sabra loryn!

cheap

a lot happened the night before last + last night...

a lot.

today: i come home to a gift from my mom on my bed...

it was none other than a wedding ring pillow holder in all white

is there some arranged wedding i should know about. haha

they are done.

new music on my ipod.. like 700+ songs.

black rebel motorcycle club has been added to my top 10.

C H E A P

today i bought two dresses

both over 50.00$ in the beginning

but in the end i bought them both for a whopping 7.43$ SCORE

i am so good at what i do.

the outfit can be worn together or apart. meaning i have 4 different outfits out of these two babies

ones a little witchy and the other is retro glam.

pictures.. tomorrow..promise

currently listing to Radiohead (paranoid Android) OK Computer.

Work tomorrow - - - 3-10 - - - good thing my mom mad taco rolls for dinner meaning.. badass lunch break tomorrow. although im not looking forward to unload a truck.. i hate tues & fri.

baton rouge

Random trip to Baton Rouge right when i got off of work yesterday.

it's been lovely.

participants in this trip include: Me, Rach, Kelli, Sarah, Jud, Joe, Logan, Blake.

i also ran into Jeremiah Johnson which totally made my night.

the show was great.

i had to sneck in the back because i had left my wallet back in Lc and they wouldn't let me in even though i was on the guest list without an ID we were highly pissed i had an anxiety attack and then i grew a pair and went in through the back.

last night was unexpected/unpredictable/unexplainable

you had to have been here.

STORY OF MY LIFE:

keywords:

found,aladdin,phone call,vibrate,mom,laughter

i think the best part of the trip was finding this little beauty:

details below.

MY NEWEST MOST FABULOUS MOST PERFECT PIECE.

The Voyager Coat.

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_____________

sometimes she feels her world spinning and spinning

and others a complete stand still

eyes opened wide, looking at the heavens, time passes

she dreams about the day when she will meet her constant

her complete other..

call him hers and be done with the pain and waiting

be done with all of the things that break her

the one who will mend her broken heart

wipe away her tears and kiss her cheek

the one that tells her goodnight

the one she wakes up to

this life is so short

and there are times we feel like we wish it would be over with

times when we would do anything to stop it

end it

i say one word to her

never think i'm to far away

never give up on what you want

never say never

and never let someone get you down enough to think you cant handle it.

(God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it)

never forget that.

tear your insides out.

february 19, 2010

i worked i got paid.

it was slim.

i felt like an idiot.

but they called me Pocohontins.

(if the shoe fits.)

b r o w s e this site:

the.white.panda.

courtesy of Steven Krsyko

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consider going on itunes and purchasing black rebel motorcycle club.

RIGHT NOW.

every album.

they play at sxsw this year. i wonder if i'm going again.

fingers crossed.

and BTW if anyone wants to purchase my bonnaroo ticket/armband now that would be HIGHLY amazing.

(meaning BUY ME ONE: just incase that sounded like i was selling one, cough alison johnson cough)

damn i wish i had one extra to sell..

thank you

i mean that's just me... but go ahead. i dare you.

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miss daysha, feel better PLEASE

i need you to not be ill.

i know you can't really help it but it's bringing me down

get well

that is all.

oh she's going to kill me.

the more and more time passes i keep thinking about my name

(c o u r t n e y)

so childish- adorable of course and i love it,

but as time goes by Mrs/Miss/Ms Courtney sounds so...

young/immature.

i've been thinking and the thing is:

I WANT TO GO BY DAWN

fact: my mother goes by Dawn -- downfall

fact: my mothers true name is Anita -- I love that.

anyway, it really can't be done without you.

it's not like im going to say my names Dawn when everyones still calling me Courtney.

OPINION?

@@@

taking a shower on pain killers and muscle relaxers is harder than you think.

ready to get myself dressed and go into town- did i mention i am starving.

between getting tackled and listening to the up beats of papercuts i forgot to feed myself lastnight.

1 - 2 - 3

ciao'

scanners

quote: sometimes, i'm a little ahead of the times.- cdw

Scanners- Salvation

LISTEN TO IT

i have shown a number of people (Scanners) trying to build up their tolerance.

Funny that i have a new track from their new album on my itunes today.

MEANS KETCHUP PEOPLE!

-your hands they burn like mine, i'll take you to my grave-