it's all true.
Friday, June 11, 2010
2 people have come about again in my life this late night.
1 + 1 = 2
they seek words and advice.
they seek passionate emotions.
they seek a friend.
the same friend/lover they have once had before.
i am her.
she is me.
i'm not the same girl i was last year.
i have since moved on.
i have found myself out.
i have forgiven.
i am a forgiver.
i have value.
the girl you want back isn't around.
from the deepest pit of my belly,
courtney dawn wilks
you are my present, and future.
i love you.
even though you aren't reading this i want you to know that.
at 12:48 AM
Thursday, June 10, 2010
i guess i am in this weird place.
see earlier today you wouldn't have thought that..
i've been happy. (in the sense that i am with an amazing boy who i can't get enough of.)
but i need to reach for a goal.
i need to spread my wings. honestly.
i just have to tell myself i can do it.
i can do it.
these words are hard to come by.
i hold myself back- she holds me back- it holds me back (money)
i am going to do something about it.
just had a flashback of this time last year...
all things are different now.
okay off to bed.
Please let this work.
at 1:07 AM