Tuesday, June 15, 2010

p a s t

it's all true.

Friday, June 11, 2010

they are seeking

2 people have come about again in my life this late night.
1 + 1 = 2

they seek words and advice.
they seek passionate emotions.
they seek a friend.
the same friend/lover they have once had before.
i am her.
she is me.
i'm not the same girl i was last year.
i have since moved on.
i have found myself out.
i have forgiven.
i am a forgiver.
i have value.

the girl you want back isn't around.

from the deepest pit of my belly,
courtney dawn wilks

dear holt,
you are my present, and future.
i love you.
even though you aren't reading this i want you to know that.

Thursday, June 10, 2010


Secret #189:
I felt prettier last year.

[no im not trying to be stupid. im trying to tell you how i feel]

Secret #345:
I am happier this year.

love changes you.

holding me back

i guess i am in this weird place.

see earlier today you wouldn't have thought that..
i've been happy. (in the sense that i am with an amazing boy who i can't get enough of.)
but i need to reach for a goal.
i need to spread my wings. honestly.
i just have to tell myself i can do it.
i can do it.
these words are hard to come by.

i hold myself back- she holds me back- it holds me back (money)
i am going to do something about it.

just had a flashback of this time last year...
all things are different now.

okay off to bed.
Please let this work.