Wednesday, September 30, 2009

new vintage nightgown






"i have had a horrible day."
& now im sick with a migraine.
taking a candle lit bath then off to bed..

- i got my eyebrows waxed today & (cried because of the result) 
- didn't get my hair dyed or cut.
so im not a happy camper.
UGH.






B T W:

leaving tomorrow night for 

[n a s h v i l l e, Tennessee.]
be there soon.

i'm so ready.


Dress: secondhand
Lipstick: blackcherry

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

long time no see

tonight was brilliant.
me, megan, jess, and ariane.

the night started with a guitar and the new prien lake park.
and ended with tea from starbucks and about a dozen mosquito bites.
but it was all worth it..

i haven't hung out with those girls in forever.
meg's due any minute now- and i feel so far away and distant with her.

we vowed to do this more often and i decided why not tomorrow sooo same time tomorrow we will all be back together sharing time with one another.
this time at the beach- can't wait.


xox
tonight was needed more than most things

Monday, September 28, 2009

what everyone thinks but never says:

Need to know 
I don't wanna know 
Already know 
I've seen the signs 
I watch you as you pull yourself away from me 

Can't believe 
I wanna believe 
How can i believe 
You're making me doubt 
I thought i knew you 
I don't even know myself
... 

breaking my heart again- aqualung

Sunday, September 27, 2009

r e m a k e

not even stones, could break his walls.


T H I S 
is exactly what i want.

wildfox couture


Pisces: i live in a fantasy world.
(i guess they're right)
 
w i l d f o x couture

looks up and thinks:

seems to me like everyone is "smitten" these days.

what happened...
[i'm in hiding.]

Saturday, September 26, 2009

soft touches

i can't wait for the day i get to turn this into something beautiful.
"i desire to inspire"



xo
CourtneyDawn




P.S.
it happened again today
this time i didn't have to say anything first
(delightful)


oh & still job hunting
C O M M E N T if you think of any advice or places to apply


goodnight

poem

not so fresh thoughts
-a few months old.
never posted.

and the heavens opened to fill your life with worth 

for just a moment. 

you thought there was no way out 

but just then your life's roses once again bloomed

and filled the room with scents from ages before.

your face turned a sort of pink 

and the shades of grey no longer were present. 

your eyes that have forever been glazed were now soft and aware.

sunlight beemed down on that awkward face of yours 

and smiles from deep inside of you came into sight. 

the day was no longer blue but silver.

the day was what you made it.

- CourtneyDawnWilks



music

 s i l e n t  v i o l e t 

s i l e n t  v i o l e t
s i l e n t  v i o l e t
s i l e n t  v i o l e t
s i l e n t  v i o l e t
s i l e n t  v i o l e t
s i l e n t  v i o l e t
s i l e n t  v i o l e t




Friday, September 25, 2009

daily no. 1


You know when you want:
to tell someone "hello"
or "how are you doing today"
just to start conversation...
Y E A H
i usually am the one to do just that,
but with this person,
sometimes i just wish it were different.
sometimes, it is.
but then
i think to myself..
i guess you don't see me that way
hahah
at least i find my ways humorous.
 


I could be impossible
maybe i haven't realized it yet

By The Way:
im looking for a job in NASHVILLE TN.
if ANYONE reads this and knows of anywhere hiring.
P  L  E  A  S  E
notify me.
retail is my forte' (obviously)

xox
cdw

ps: i cannot believe i just wrote this..
it isn't about who you might think...
goodnight

Thursday, September 24, 2009

pixie market

p i x i e  m a r k e t
p i x i e  m a r k e t

s a l e
s a l e

a little "katy perry"
yes i did just quote that
you know why...

 
I just redid this post.
its a little obnoxious. 
it makes no point.
and there isn't info on anything.

(knock of Chole' booties)
(and a pricey dress i found on a 75% off rack)
i think i want to alter the bottom- a little to long for my tastes.


√∫

"The Lacie garter"

only 18$ @ VS

g e t   y o u r s   n o w

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

p a y l e s s


These shoes are by far
the tease for me.
     A new look at Alice+Olivia
For Payless..
                                                                                          
                                                 


theses babies are able 
to be purchased for 50$ 
and totally worth it.. 




 

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

C&C

c l i n t & c o u r t n e y
n i g h t

rum and coke

B U R N (bitch)
don't correct me when im blogging...



i always list what im currently listening to- but im embarrassed.. so N O

xo.
c-d-w



ps: i look like shit.
ha.

Monday, September 21, 2009

b l o w j o b

JUST GOT ASKED TO GIVE A BLOWJOB!!!
YOU HAVE GOT TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME
JOKE OR NOT
(AND THAT I WONT KNOW)
NEVER SPEAKING TO YOU AGAIN
BASTARD
IT WAS
OUT OF CON_FUCKING_TROL
AND UNCALLED FOR.

listening to Mulholland Drive Soundtrack- by David Lynch

I NEED PEACE AFTER THIS ONE.



k i s s


i want to be trapped in a kiss
held tightly
bound by another
set on fire
kissed gently
kissed roughly
feel passion
taste
touch
grab
pull
love


The Chameleons

l i v e & r e c o r d e d
the chameleons


joy division

take the next 5 to 6 mins. to just be silent.
light a candle.
b r e a t h.
and relax.


What to Do

so, i have
things to do
 before i move:
find a car
find a job
pack up my old room back at home
pack up my new room

Im realizing my living arrangements now are great
i have just what i need to survive and other than all of my furniture and decor at my old house and vinyls this is all i need

I DONT WANT TO PACK UP MY OLD ROOM
ITS A WASTE OF TIME AND THERE IS NO WAY THERE
IS ENOUGH SPACE IN NASHVILLE FOR ALL OF ME





what to do.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

random




m y  n i g h t  i s 
s o r t  o f  r a n d o m.
 


search:
rei kawakubo





ella fitzgerald



blush wine

Dear diary,

Tonight, I'm alone-
Wanting to sip on some blush wine and watch the food network or some old Molly Ringwald movie, assemble my two side end coffee tables, and possibly sit on the porch swing with a cigarette between my pointer and middle finger [in my right hand] and just think about life and listen to sweet sweet music.

 - - - those things are: w o n d e r f u l, in my mind- - -

If only i were to have another soul to share this with (in a physical state, as well as in conversation and mentally) SOON i will.
I do not think i ask for much these days, or ever really... I might mention the things that i want in this world for kicks if anything, in my mind i know i won't really ever get them, but knowing that i can say it out loud and not lose anything, is lovely no matter.
and i dream.. my outlook is rather positive (on good days)
just keep a smile on. 
and come help me put this table together of  course!
it's getting on my last nerve haha.


xoxo
c-d-w


testing out the job scene in nashville 
on the 3-4 of Oct.

wish me luck
this is MY new VIA SPIGA black leather purse.
-starting price- $350.00
-bought for- $30.00


(priced wrong)
yay for me 
xoxox

Friday, September 18, 2009










impressive
o n e w e e k
o n e d a y


(it actually has been quite nice)
i don't miss the internet.

i have been productive.

but it is good to be back.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

two minds



gareth pugh
&
rick owens



you two are beyond brilliant.
[orgasmic] 


Monday, September 7, 2009





B R I L L I A N T
IM GOING TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC.

no, im not cutting up my debit/credit card.
nor am i freezing them (in which i did think about)
but instead im just going to be strong and leave the babies at home. that way no matter what i can't spend a cent.
maybe i should have started this months ago, but at least im trying to figure out a way to help my disease now instead of never. i feel like my minute spending everyday is adding up. if im going to move im going to have to be smart and just do something about it. i guess we will see how long this works.. i dont know if it'll last long, "FML"
  

mind reader.


im showing complete pity right now.
im ashamed of it but i have to get it off of my chest.

im totally rocking the sad face.
my days seem long yet my time feels short.
october seems to be the month for freedom.
yet i feel like im not even prepared.
and i know that i am not.

i want and long for so much more.
i long for faces and relationship.
yet i am needing to figure out MYSELF.

i am NOT independent.
i hate that i feel like i need someone to hold my hand.
i hate that i never have that- i hate that i dont know where my father is.
i hate that i don't hear from him and i know he is so close.
i don't have support from friends, or family.
and in general i dont even know who my friends and family are.

i feel stuck.
i want to get out.
i feel like i am not being able to do this on my own (in my mind)
i want to SAY that i am capable of anything i put my mind to,
but when no one has words of encouragement how can i believe it.

im destined to do better things.
i want to be the person i don't feel like i can be right now.
i want to be strong
i want to feel love.
i will always support you
i will always show you how i feel.
i want to be shown the same.

i really would like to not worry and trust that everything is going to be okay.
and that October IS IN FACT the RIGHT month of freedom (for me)

(kisses palm of hand and blows a kiss to the sky saying thankyou)

Sunday, September 6, 2009

_|||_

anxiety-anxiety
d i s a p p e a r
i'm constantly in thought.
i have a fear (sure) but i have a knowing that i will make it.
i want to make my money, get a car, pay off my credit & loans and MOVE.
all of these things can happen
and they can happen step by step, it doesn't have to take place all at once
i need to remind myself to stop freaking out.
i'll be okay, this happens. (it's life)
i wish i could have some kind of connection though.
ahhh.
things will get better right?
there is no need for me to be carrying this heavy load.



i'll be fine.

things will happen when they are meant to happen. 

ps: the pictures and the writings are not meant to be relevant to one another.
i just really enjoy "bruno dayan's" work.