Friday, October 9, 2009


I'm starting to think i don't have a chance with people.
in relationships, friendships...
i can't seem to hold on to anything, or i hold on to something that isn't there.
i think so highly of people, always give out the benefit of the doubt, and will stand up at any moment to apologize & be the "bigger person".
i've tried to quit and just not act out on my emotions and not try. 
but the same things happen.
they disappear out of my life when i need them most.
maybe moving will show them all up.
i won't say goodbye, i just want to leave.

1 comment:

  1. Some of us are just observers, quiet and silent, peeking in on your life from time to time.

    I personally am saddened that you are leaving, but at the same time so very excited for you.

    I want to know you better, take pictures with you and share silly deep intelectual thoughts about everything and nothing. I want to experience this amazing creative person that is you and be there for you when you need to be lifted up. I'll still be here no matter how far away you are with a kind word and understanding ear when you need it and we barely know each other. This is the power of impression, it is the affect you have on someone who appreciates your art. That is why I am here.

    Get out of Lake Charles, run as fast as you can from this place. Your ideas are bigger than this place and it cant satisfy you.

    The people that have faded away from your life are still there, but your life is heading in a different direction. Remember our last conversation about cherishing the experiences. It is the most important thing about these relationships to hold on to. Not what happens today, or tomorrow but the things that make you care about them to begin with.

    :) Big J