p a s t

it's all true.

they are seeking

2 people have come about again in my life this late night.

1 + 1 = 2

they seek words and advice.

they seek passionate emotions.

they seek a friend.

the same friend/lover they have once had before.

i am her.

she is me.

i'm not the same girl i was last year.

i have since moved on.

i have found myself out.

i have forgiven.

i am a forgiver.

i have value.

the girl you want back isn't around.

from the deepest pit of my belly,

courtney dawn wilks

dear holt,

you are my present, and future.

i love you.

even though you aren't reading this i want you to know that.

†††cdw†††

secrets.

Secret #189:

I felt prettier last year.

[no im not trying to be stupid. im trying to tell you how i feel]

Secret #345:

I am happier this year.

love changes you.

holding me back

i guess i am in this weird place.

see earlier today you wouldn't have thought that..

i've been happy. (in the sense that i am with an amazing boy who i can't get enough of.)

but i need to reach for a goal.

i need to spread my wings. honestly.

i just have to tell myself i can do it.

i can do it.

...

these words are hard to come by.

i hold myself back- she holds me back- it holds me back (money)

i am going to do something about it.

just had a flashback of this time last year...

all things are different now.

okay off to bed.

Please let this work.

-ciao.