Monday, November 30, 2009

girls












by me.

ghosts in my mind

video
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H E L P

I NEED A JOB
I NEED A JOB
I NEED A JOB
I NEED A JOB
I NEED A JOB
I NEED A JOB


there's no sugar coating this one, i need a job.
HOPES: 9-5, 40 hour weeks, starting at 8.35$ (like my old one)
N O T S E A S O N A L
anyone know where i can find this???

Saturday, November 28, 2009

t e a r s f l o w

someone (age 24) told me today that they were too old.
and this was my reply:
"you are ripe not rotten. get over it. im a child yet i am a lady, age will never conquer a man."

L I V E

my writings.

she finds herself wide eyed and amazed
how dim and mute the colors in her world have changed
finding light within the darkest of objects
she keeps her mouth shut
for she is to afraid to speak her true feelings towards them
she peers deep down beneath herself
and brings forth a voice
though soft and faint
one hears her cry
she is without a light to call her own
she feels alone and wicked
she will seek and she will find
i n t h e s h a d o w s . . .
cdw-11.28.09

Friday, November 27, 2009

j'espère que c'est vrai

we are dying from our birth
we must make life have some worth.

Thursday, November 26, 2009








i really want someone to paint me a few scenes from
Six Figures Getting Sick by David Lynch.
they're exactly what i want.

(any takers)


Please Remember You Are Dealing With The Human Form:

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F A C T : found this while you tubing a Rammstein video directed by David Lynch.

Then i strayed away from the films and went commercial...
and found this and fell in love with people.

j_e_w_e_l_r_y

M A D E H E R T H I NK
M A D E H E R T H I N K
M A D E H E R T H I NK

talons knuckle buster armor silver 138$

talons knuckle buster also in antique gold and gunmetal 138$

Double Band ChainRing pave-silver OX 370$

(has been a want for months now)

Pave-Pendulum-Ring 66$

double talon knuckle buster 196$

double band chain ring glove-oxidized sterling silver 575$

(also has been a want of mine for months)

Cell Ring 796$

Blade Ring 253$

(for someone else maybe..)



___meredith kahn for made her think___

l o v e

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

__≤≥__

Alright,
Depeche Mode is a turn on no matter what-
But Ghost (the bonus track) from Sounds of the Universe has got to be
the biggest pantie wetter of mine ever. (as far as songs go)
and this has gone on for months now
and it's about his divorce.
im picturing a hot bedroom scene with someone and this song will def. set my mood.



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feelings inside of me are stirring
so much so that i get motion sickness even at the thought of you
e__u__p__h__o__r__i__c
i feel outside of myself at times
i want to be able to touch you † your voice † your mind † you soul
you have me
i'm your shadow
your ghost
there with you in spirit
always

these are my words
these are


† _____ † _____ †

im sick
not the sick i have been saying, but the kind where i need to see a doctor.
i can't hardly inhale without coughing so much to where i gag,
i have a fever
i'm constantly in a cold sweat
im pale
i'm taking meds and nothings working.
BLAH

make me better • make me better



btw- last night was brilliant
i've been smiling since.


fragile tension

in love

now i must listen to every album i have of them.
turn on overload.
Mmmm
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Fact: My Favorite Number is 16 (but i favor any number with a 6 in it)
Currently Listening To: Interpool
Mood: Sick




words.



how can i feel hapless when i'm surrounded by sights so sweet.
help me realize what i have in front of me.
let me take hold of it with a firm grip.
keep me from feeling empty and alone.
make time.
let me fall for something real.

* * *

i cannot stop coughing.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

pinup


40's up-do
why don't i wear my hair up anymore.
you will never see me with my hair anyway other than down.
or with a wig on.

Hmmm.

S T E A L S


these beauties are similar to the paintings i already own and look for.
they are absolutely perfect!
(thrift stores have no idea what they have)
the necklace on the right is a 1958 Goldette N.Y. piece
(amazing find)
(both are worth much much more than what i bought them for)

these 3 paintings are by Janet Weed Beaver.
(not originals of course)

All together today i spent: 24$
im a deal maker.
it's a gift.

envy

since i was a little girl i have always wanted to restore old furniture
and turn it into whimsical pieces of art.
i envy the creators at chaircouture.
they are masters.



























































































oh la la










i n s p i r e d inspired i n s p i r e d


i love looking at all the fabulous color schemes and decor at Plush Plate
but this time i have to share.
(check out her site it's amazing)



yesterday i felt like a GAP ad.
strange.
like a long haired, red lipped, Audrey Hepburn.
not my style but a guilty pleasure perhaps.